kool aid.

you miss out on the good songs if you don't listen to the whole cd.

iwroteit.

the aftertaste.

i really cannot wait for the summer.
and i am really craving vanilla chai tea.
-mdm

paier.

i'm sorry i wasn't what you had hoped for.
but this is me.
-mm.

superhero movies.

the 'names that really hurt' us taught me to have confidence, to think before i act, to be nice to everyone. i should just like what i like and not care about others.
the phantom of the opera was amazing.
so is the glow-in-the-dark shirt.
and the yellow submarine.
and chinese food out of the carton.
and just life itself.
i have finally gotten back to normal.
-mdm

soundtrack of today? and of alot of my life? coldplay.

abara cadabra.

i'm going to tell some about myself,
just because i'm trying to figure it out.

i'm a thinker. i analyze everything.
my moods are extreme.
i have alot of phobias.
coffee has become an addiction.
i love anything to do with music.
concerts are freaking sick.
i dance, i draw, i act, i sing, i play instruments, i write, and i take photography.
dancing is my everything.
i watch alice in wonderland every day.
it has been there with me through everything.
i like things that make no sense.
i like weird food.
i have weird eating habits.
i doodle on everything. legit.
i wear skinny jeans almost every day.
i'm thinking about going veggie again.
i love the ocean so much. and nature in general.
i laugh at my own jokes.
i love animals. my favorites are rabbits and bats.
i find the beauty in everything.
i'm obsessed with halloween.
i am very open, there is never an awkward situation in my view.
i love psychopaths, monsters, dinosaurs, jazz, furniture stores, etc etc.
i'm one of the few that actually like highschool.
lyrics and poetry mean alot to me.
i appreciate the little things. all of them.
i love learning about people. and meeting new people.
i love getting out and doing as much stuff as i can.
my best friends say that no one will ever understand my mind fully because it is so abstract.
even them.
i pronounce 'room' like 'rum'. i can't help it.
both of my parents are band/chorus/music teachers.
i eat too much fruit.
i love batman. and hello kitty.
there is never a time when my nails aren't painted.

okay, that is what i came up with.

let's have some fun, this beat is sick.

i haven't felt this good in a long long while.
i hope it will get back to the way it was.
-mm

impatience.

i am so so glad that i only wear heels like, 3 times a year.
i would probably kill myself if i wore them anymore.
my new best friend is named tyler. (:
i threw a bottle at that girl.
she deserved it.
i hate people who think they are better than everyone else.
gahhh i want someone to call me.
a certain someone.
now.
but he's not.
and it's kind of sad :/
i need to lose weight.
-mdm

seek professional help.

i love coming up with band names.
and i also love this unicorn wood block thing.
and i even love cleaning. (well, right now at least.)
but what i don't love is how i'm starting to hear things.
-mm

it's raining cats and cranberries.

Some static-y words had told me to eat my vegetables.
A dinosaur was hanging on the doorknob.
Gummy worms are tastier down a creepy street.
The sombrero galaxy blew me away.
Eskimo kisses are odd while the worse is happening upstairs.
Simple lions and pan flutes mean I'm a pro.
The muffins were better than the burnt cookies.
I thought the floor would cave in.
The girl had sharpies on her neck.
'Goddamn you half-Japanese girls...'
I think I'll go dance in the rain.
-mdm

oh that friday.

hah.

oh, i just love when people tell me who i am.
like they know....
-mdm

fools.

today i descovered that i like my coffee black.
and that the Munsters theme song cannot be heard within a furniture store.
even if it is played 33 times.
-mdm

oh kitty! how nice it would be if we could only get through the looking glass house!

As I am sitting here, drinking white hot chocolate and listening to words that I know too well, (Alice in Wonderland is seriously here with me through everything,) I am starting to wonder about life and the point. Of course there are those great moments, memories saved in little boxes. But they dwindle away.
They always do. We always try to hold on to them, but they find a way of escaping our grasp. I can remember back to days when I would sit in my big living room back in East Haven. The sunlight would pour through the big picture window as I would watch the works of Beatrix Potter. Back when living carefree was normal and innocence was the way of life. Those days of ice cream trucks and Easter egg hunts. I miss it. Then there are memories from summers, when Caitlin and I would drink frappuccinos as we dressed like hippies, holding ‘Honk For Peace’ signs. And when we made that really long video. Or when we went to the racetrack pretending we were British; stalking this kid and eating cheetos. Lucky charms, tag sales, dino bones, backstreet boy calls….those were good times. Then the days of my family…murder mysteries and purple mountain dew, crappy flat irons and weird nail polish. The days of the squeaker, and the animaniacs, underwater tea parties and wooden swings. Family is a good thing. The memories from autumn; band competitions and sequals, crunchy leaf piles and weird green 3D glasses. You probably don't understand any of this.
But it brings me to the point that memories are everything. Time is everything. You need to savior the moment, and not let one to waste. Don’t care what others think, because life is short. Think positively. Don’t try to figure life out, because you can’t. Life is a jumble of confusing. Just follow it as it goes. Live it. Like the Doorknob says, “Read the directions and directly you will be directed in the right direction.”
-mdm.